♫♪ Sleep All Day, Sleep All, Sleep All Day ♪♫

It's been a while.. since I haven't visited my blog. And BLOGGED.

(sighs) Seems like I just got woke up from a terrible nightmare.
But really. I just woke up. I've been sleeping all day long. Staying up for a few hours and then going back to sleep the next. Nothing much this time, not hangover nor a heartache. (Or maybe.) I just feel like visiting for three GOOD reasons. 1st, Bored. 2nd, Bored. 3rd, Bored. Duhhh


♫♪ oh what a lovely day to have a slice of humble pie
recalling of the while we used to drive and drive here and there
going nowhere but for us, nowhere but for the two of us
and we knew it was time to take a chance here
and time to compromise our lives just a little while


and it was time for all the wrong reasons
but time is often on my side and I give it to you tonight
and we sleep all, sleep all day, sleep all, we sleep all day over again ♪♫


WHY DON'T WE?

I'm lovin' his Geek in the Pink song. I have a feeling that Jason Mraz wrote it for me.. LOL


I'm so eff-ing bored at this moment and at this late. I guess that's what you get when you sleep all day, you'll gonna miss all the fun!




Gudnyt. but Gud mrning for me. Uh-oh, gonna stay awake and hit church later!

DON'T LOSE FOCUS, EYE ON PRUHHZZZE

Never felt this adrenaline before... hahahahahaha

This is me cramming for the Prelim Exam. (Minor exam pa gani na..haha.) So, after, uhm --- Protozoa, Porifera, Coelenterata, Ctenophora, Platyhelminthes, Nemahelminthes, Annelida, Mollusca, Echinodermata, Arthropoda and Chordata, The Phylums--- after studying all these weird Zoology terms, I still have to continue studying the different Classes on each Phylum, their immense variety and the processes occurring within the animals from one another. Like Class Asteroidea, Ophiuroidea, Echinodoidea, Holothoroidea, Crinoidea and Concenricyclodea -- these are the different Classes ONLY of the Phylum Echinodermata.


Care to read much more? Nahh, never mind, I know it sounds tedious and boring.


TERMS I SHOULD UNDERSTAND.. AND ABSORB!!


• Hydrophilic Molecules - dissolves in water
• Hydrophobic Molecules - repel water
• Amphipatic Molecules - both hydrophilic and hydrophobic properties


• Gluconeogenesis - converting fats and protein to glucose
• Glycogenesis - converting glucose to glycogen and stored
• Glycogenolysis - stored glycogen and converted glucose
• Glycolysis - conversion on glucose to pyruvic acid


It's almost 12 midnight.. Finally my body advised me to slow down and rest.

Note: My white shirt says, "SAVE LIFE. SAVE WORLD." (Let's cheers to that!)


Life goes on. Gotta endure whatever may come. G'nyt, everyone!

AND I SAW CUPID HOVERING IN THE SKY

And he shot an arrow right through my chest.

Surprisingly, he shot a second arrow.
Then a third one.
And a fourth.
Then a fifth.

I pull the five arrows from my bleeding heart, they were  practically the same, but each of them had a word etched in their individual shafts:
Suffering, Loss, Hope, Joy and Passion. I could tell that they were different in some sort of way until I looked at their arrowheads.
I was stunned.


Each of them bears your name.

PROTOTYPICAL. Hahahaha

Mao ni tarung nga estudyante. Muadto'g skwelahan nga late, katugon pa ug labaw sa tnan, USA RA KA-NOTEBOOK DALHON. WLA'Y BALLPEN, WLA'Y PAPEL.

And without any fear of consequence, without any regards to my studies, without considering that my mother might cut out my weekly cash because my major subjects are dipping near 2.0.

I love you, Denielle! Maau.. pdayuna na. Hahahaha

BUNCHES OF EMOTIONS I AM FEELING RIGHT NOW

a.) An'sakit na.


b.) An'sakit sakit na.



c.)  An'sakit sakit sakit na.

d.)  An'sakit sakit sakit sakit na.





e.)  An'sakit sakit sakit sakit  sakit na.



f
f
f
fffffffffffffuck. >.<


You know how the alphabet works right?
Yea, that's what I thought. T-T

WERTYUIOGSDFHGFJASKLSDFGHJKXCVBNMWYTWERTUIOSDFGHJKCVBNMS
DFGHWERTYUIPtanginaWERTYUUOISASDFGHJKLZXCVBNMMWERTYUI.

='((

♫♪ Don't Say Goodbye. Baby, Just Say Goodnight.. ♪♫

Holding on to you, the things you never knew.



Having you close, what makes me feel true.


Stars are bright, Oceans are blue.


And time should never matter to me and you. ♥



--- Patriotism.

Noticed the colors? Hmm.

Lol.

[ I'm saving all your messages, hun. :* ]

What happened to us?

We're like strangers, again in a secluded and selfish world, merely exchanging Hi's and How are you's. Never thought of all the things that we've been through.. and how it made us to what we were. 


I was just thinking..



But hey, I'm here. Always here.. Hope u knw that.

G'nyt.

Guess what!

Just these days are the most unconscious of me about dates and times. I just realized it's Nov. 4! haha! Like it makes sense.. It never really pop in my sanity that today has its significance... 'til I chanced to glance my lap time.

November is the eleventh month of the year, and today is the 4th. So, that makes it 11-4.


Extrapolaaate! ..and BOOOOOOMM!


IT'S 4/11! =))





Ah, nonsense! hahaha! wai ma-post.. XD
-BOW

1.11

LOVE


Love is the greatest of all virtues. And also the most dangerous. Many people do not realize that love in itself cannot stand alone; it needs patience, understanding, temperance, mutuality, and even reason. But there are others who do not realize this. If the seeds of love are nurtured the wrong way, it turns into obsession, delusion, greed, egoism, raging passion, and thus destruction.
There are those who realize the dangers of love, so they have treated it with caution and with compassion. But there are others who would prefer to learn the hard way. Until they face their fall, they keep toying with love again, and again, and again…


In short, Love is a complication in life.





Why am I even posting this? Hahahaha. Feliz Dia de Todos los Santos Everyone!

I was really looking forward for the last call until...

'til she added me.

It's been awhile since that "fb issues" we've had. Sa dinami-dami ba naman ng fb accounts namin, halos lahat-lahat ng pinag-aawayan namin ay dahil at galing dun. Ang fb mismo. As in FACEBOOK.


I have known her other account for 6months. 6months that I have no access to it. And it's starting to annoy me that I'm NOT a 'friend' or any part of it. I started to think. and I hate how it confuses me. What is she holding back? What is she keeping from me?  What is really the problem?  Or was it about that 'trust' thingy again? Am I not that trusted? Or is it her pride? Is it me? Or is it her?

What am I to her exactly?




Earlier June this year, I cyber-stalked. Or hacked. Or borrowed -- yeah, borrowed an account just to get access, then checked her posts. I was stunned. She's saying things 'bout me (or anyone else who's just very likely me) How pathetic am I in that line.. Got myself struck in silence and teary-eyed. I have this feeling inside me.. racing. Maybe anger, disappointment, hopelessness.. maybe remorse. Even petrified. Yet...


..yet, i can't hate her. I wouldn't do that.
I can't. I JUST can't.



Now, I'm not sure what to feel. Happy? Contented? Should I be overwhelmed after all?
I can't even take a peek or view her profile. I don't know why. Maybe I'm scared.. scared on what I'd see.


I'm not sure what I feel.. or felt. All I know is I'm hurting.. 

I don't wanna ask too much. But if you don't like me, just say so. So I can distance myself before u forcefully forsake me. Ayt?!

I'M GIVING UP.

TWO INNOCENTS HAVING A CONVERSATION

G: "Yen, THANK YOU.. Ü madE my night.... x)


ng.fb q, kai pmpwala stress.. 'nya pg.open.. Hala!
kw juy una nkt.an naq sa h0me page.. Nyahaha. 'n dat made me ambot. Salamat.

Kung khbw ka sa ras0n, ai q kataw.e.. Hahaha! Thank u agen..

nyt.
[milagroDikokatug]"


(The day after..)

Me: "That was like three Thank You's. I'm overwhelmed."

G:
"shut up..
hahaha
ateyyy... ayg basaha ui..
waaaa"

Me: "hahaha.. mnah nuon."

G:
"xD ayawww daiiiii!!
laina...
btawww.. true 2 xa.. gkan 2 sa pnaka.ilawman sa akong kasing'2x.."

Me:
"Char..
Ayaaaaaawwww!! kai di gai q ka.get over. Haha "

G:
"hahaha.. hilumi ui.."

Me:
"Abot tangkugo aqng smile. =)) "

G:
"hahaha! diin gd ka anahhh.."

Me:
"gkan 2 sa pnaka.ilawman sa akong kasing'2x.. :)) "

G:
"nyahaha.. luoooodd...
ai knug balika"

Me:
"ai pgbuot..
kai gnhan raq."

G:
" ngasaba mn... kaw guddd..."

Finally!

How long has it been? a week? two weeks? It seems like forever since I had that giddy feeling of visiting my blog.

School has been a drag lately. Finals came, heartaches, things changed and all that shit. With all the disturbances, finally I am finished reading The Secrets of the Immortal Nicholas Flamel: The Alchemyst Book. It happened on a boring Sunday afternoon. I found myself being out of my uncertainties, and then I desperately find ways to escape my boredom. And there, I found the Book. Instead of reading the last page where I left off, I read again the very first page and read it all over. Merely finishing the book, questions came out from my mind. How can I buy the second edition of this book? Do I have to buy the second one? I'm at least reading the last part, but why am I feeling that this is just the beginning? Why am I this thrilled and desperate of having the second book? Really, I'm not kidding. When I bought this book, it was my extra money from my allowances and I really, as in really saved just to buy it. It was the verrrrryy first book I'd ever bought. And sem-break is approaching, where should I get all the money I need? I'm on the edge. Really, I don't know. Haha


Why am I INTO this?
It's a series with subtle mixture of mythology and folklore and history. Countless gods, heroes, monsters, spirits, and historical figures who brighten (and darken) the story keep the reader flip the pages with excited hands.

The bizarre world of The Secrets of the Immortal Nicholas Flamel is, as the name suggests, filled with secrets, mysteries, half-truths, and half-lies. The plot revolves around Nicholas Flamel, the celebrated Alchemyst; his wife Perenelle Delamere, the powerful Sorceress; the archvillain John Dee, alchemist, necromancer and magician; the twins of legend, Sophie and Josh Newman, the Silver and the Gold, one of whom will save the world, and the other fated to destroy it; and a number of Immortal humans, Elders, and other magical beings that have no right to exist outside daydreams and nightmares.

…

   I am legend.

   There was a time when I said that death has no claim over me, that illness could not touch me. That is no longer true. Now I know the date of my death, and that of my wide, too: and it is today.

   I was born in the Year of Our Lord 1330, more than six hundred and seventy years ago. I have had a good life, a long life, and I have been many things in my time: a physician and a cook, a bookseller and a soldier, a teacher of languages and chemistry, both an officer of the law and a thief.

  But before all these I was an alchemyst. I was the Alchemyst.

    

  I was acknowledged as the greatest Alchemyst of all, sought after the kings and princes, by emperors and even the Pope himself. I could turn ordinary metal into gold, I could change common stones into precious jewels. More than this: I discovered the secret of Life Eternal hidden deep in a book if ancient magic.

  Now my wife, Perenelle, has been kidnapped and the book stolen.

  Without the book, she and I will age. Within the full cycle of the moon, we will wither and die. And if we die, then the evil we had fought so long against will triumph. The Elder Race will reclaim this Earth again, and they will wipe humanity from the face of this planet.

  But I will not go down without a fight.
  

  For I am the immortal Nicholas Flamel.

—From the Day Booke of Nicholas Flamel, Alchemyst

   Writ this day, Thursday, 7th June

   in San Francisco, my adopted city

Troubled?

MGL.... yum! :)

Old Feelings

The past, uhm, few days became the gradual destruction of my life. Absence in classes, drinking sessions, and didn't noticed that I went back to something, where my dark days had gone. And I even found myself oftenly staring aimlessly at nowhere. Somewhat, I tried to ask myself the question why.

Really, why??

Since the day I found that they're already THEM. I deliberately suppressed all the emotions that I should be feeling. Grief. Anger. Hope. Despair. But then a month after, and another, (oh shit! they're getting stronger!) I started to feel one by one, all those emotions that I tried so hard to keep away from myself. I lost every appetite of getting my life into fireworks and exciting drum rolls. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. This darkness and the uncertainty of what lies ahead scares me. I don't wanna seem so weak, but this, this pain that I'm feeling cripples me.. that everytime I wake up every morning, feels like yesterday. Feels like I had a million daggers in my heart, with extraordinary and much more pain. And then I cried so much that I wanna stay in my bed for the rest of my day. It feels like dying every second I remember all the chances that was given to me, all those happy moments we've had, and all those misunderstandings we've cried. It's so hard to forget someone that easily.

But I'd rather keep it all inside my solitude. 

It wasn't just an old feelings. I loved you, and will always be. :'(



Oh boy, why am I posting this..

Hot coffee for an early hang-over.. 

Ka-bobohan

Actually, i wanna give title to this blog as "Procrastination." But whatever, I thought of the current title first. Haha

So, here's the story...




As I was thoroughly scanning my notes in my room, preparing for my exams tomorrow, my dad suddenly appeared.


Dad: "What, tomorrow's your exam? let's drink, beers are good nourishment before exams.

Me: "......................." (?.?)

Dad: (gives me P500 and a key..) "I think that's enough for our session tonight. Now go."

Me: (back in a flash, bringing 3bottles of RH.) "Is it really okay to drink, dad? I'm sure now's not the time."

Dad: "Trust me. I've done that before."

And his never-ending stories goes on and on.. and on.




It's not that I'm really a drunkard , I just know how to nurse myself from a nasty hang-over. Mmp.. but I still feel crappy though.

And now I'm practicing procrastination, reviewing (at the same time, blogging) 30min before my semi-finals exam. Whatever the outcome is, IT'S MY DAD'S FAULT!! Hahahaha

Rise and shine, sleepyheads!! :D

WTF!!!

When I was attending the 5PM mass earlier, I unluckily chanced to sit a disfigured and nicely destroyed, good-for-nothing chair. How convenient... While the priest was having a head start, it happened to be that I'm thinking of my devilish thoughts about Christianity AGAIN when a lady came right into me hoping for any vacancies. How lucky she was.. with the chair? Right. 

As I was concentratedly listening about the homily, a sweat was starting to form from my forehead, i can now feel the gahddamn heat. Good thing my sister had brought her magic fan (the i-don't-know-how-this-gahddamn-thing-works! how to flip/fold and all that). Then suddenly, that lady beside me brought out hers. She did all that fanning and fanning when my body starts to sore, the in-not-normal-mode. Urghhh, what was that smell? I can practically feel my right lungs throbbing. It was like a perfume in her fan or maybe on herself that I didn't recognize earlier. That's why I don't like perfumes, it's more or less over-scented or  unpleasantly odored. Then the next thing I knew, I can feel my heart pounding, aching. Sh*t. Oh, was I supposedly have to say that? I think. No choice at all but to endure whatever dilemma it may bring to myself.

When the mass was ended, somehow i feel elated because I wouldn't be able to sniff that annoying and murderous smell anymore.

But I don't know why I still have this troubled feeling in my body until now!!! I even feel like vomiting, and not eating. I feel sick! I already take a tablet but still UNCURED!  T.T


FCK!!!  >.<

Alam mo yung feeling na andami-dami mong dapat gawin kaya lang wala kang ganang gumawa ni kahit isa? Gusto mo lang umupo at magpakatanga, humiga at matulog pro hndi ka nman tlaga nkakatulog, maglakad na walang laman ang isip? At halos mangiyak-ngiyak ka sa kakaisip kung ano pa ang ibang gagawin maliban sa lahat ng dpat mong gawin? T.T

Alam mo yun? :'(

Surprise Good-Bye

SEPTEMBER 7, 2011

Today is WEIRD. We were dismissed earlier than our usual dismissing time.. as i correctly remembered, at about 4:17pm.  Beforehand, i was asked to join a food tripping session.... ughhhh, FOOD. (Can't say No, haha!) Time runs. Finished eating. Talked. We're waiting for the fetch.. and kept waiting. Nababagot. I was aiming for 4thirty. An'tagal! Passed 5pm, and there!

So there was i, hurriedly going home, wishing to see a familiar face. Looking back everywhere... The next thing i knew, i was sitting inside the bus. Again waiting. Waiting for it to move. Seems like forever so I transferred to another.

On my way, I was thinking...... Phew. "Okay, next time."

Disappointed.

All I could do is sit back AND LISTEN TO MY BEST BUDDY, Music. All along.
Destination's near, my phone ran out of battery. Arggghh! >.<
I put it in my bag and do the "muni-muni."

U know the feeling when u really think and think.. and think of someone AND THEN SUDDENLY, "Bye, Denielle!"

Me: "Ohhhhh....." (surprisingly.. smiled, questionably looking)


It was all I could manage to say, because somehow, I don't know how or why, that's what all it takes to make my day. :)

First Post

Just like other first posts should be, I would like to make it simple yet interesting. So where should I start?

Well it would be inappropriate if I'm gonna talk about things right ahead and wouldn't introduce myself. 

My name is Dee. Beyond my titles of being a student weirdo, a frustrated jackass, a frustrated pianist/keyboardist, a frustrated guitarist, a frustrated uhm.. well yeah, I have a lot of frustrations. Frustrations beyond what I'm saying here. Haha

My Life is amazingly and exhaustingly different. Amazing, cause that's what I feel about life. I feel blessed and gifted (if that's what you call it.) I experienced so much adventures, unexpected moments and fun, enough that I can say my life is amazing. Exhaustingly. Well, life's a cycle! Things just unexpectedly repeat itself. Shit happens. And things happen for unknown reasons.


I have a nocturnal lifestyle (just like now). I wake up and do things at night, and sleep when the sun is up (Or probably I have a very long bloodline generation of vampires, haha.) That's why they say I'm weird.. (or maybe I'm really a vampire with Edward's shining-diamonds-on-my-body kinda thing) but I guess 'different' is the word.

Well, about love? I perceive such thing as a portal to vulnerability. Coz I know I usually fall too hard and much harder of regretting as well. When I fall, I'm all way stupid. They say I do a lot of stupid things, well, I just needed a little distraction in life. :) I'm twisted, but sweet in my own sick way! =)))



And I too's not perfect.



Rememeber:

THERE IS MORE TO ME THAN MEETS THE EYE, SO SPARE ME THE JUDGEMENT.


Ok. Tiktok. That would be all for now. :)


3:00 AM: The Unholy Hour. They are now watching. Always watching...‎


Hahahahaha.. mornyt, chums!