I don't know if I can still endure the feeling...

"I feel like a dead lady with a knife on my chest." — Everything feels so heavy.. weighing so, so heavy in my chest. I felt like screaming most of the time, screams that I can't put into words. I can't assess and say what I'm really feeling inside. You know how hard that is, to not know what you feel? I wish I knew, but I just don't. And I too wish, to know how to end such agony.